Okay thats it!
I give up! Ugh guys help me, please? Im so stressed. I don’t know what to do anymore? All these schoolworks are killing me. I just wanna cry.
At first, i thought that my course will just be a piece of cake. But of course, I was wrong. I was never right.
(Please, i am warning you. Do not continue reading. This post might be a lil bit emotional/dramatic. So stop!)
So, do you guys just feel so stressed that you just wanna disappear? Okay, same. I am feeling that right now, at this very moment. I don’t know what’s happening to me, seriously. I wasn’t like this before. This is not the Bright i know. The Bright i once knew was smart; she just won’t give up just like that. She would never give up! She was so smart. She can do anything. So where’s that Bright girl? I don’t know.
This all started when i went to college 9 months ago. I really thought that it would be easy; that it will just feel like I’m still in high school. But it wasn’t like that! It felt like i was in some kind of place wherein all the wild animals are attacking me. I know, it’s horrifying! Sometimes i just blame all these things that are happening to me right now to my disease. So dramatic, right? I actually had an operation before going to college. So basically, I stopped going to school for a year. So my brain wasn’t functioning (not literally) for one whole effin year. So when college started, i just cannot focus. I was miserable, until now. When i was in high school, i was this smart girl. I even got rank 3 when i graduated. But right now, in college, i am this noob girl who can’t do anything without seeking for help. I thought college will make you independent. I thought…
I really wanna look on the brighter side of college. But i just cant. I missed everything about high school. I regret nagging about all those stuff we did before; the stuff that I thought were so hard, so difficult. I am starting to appreciate all the things we did back then.
i told you, this post is so dramatic.
Okay thank you so much for reading! Please please please i need help? I need some advices? 😦
I love you all so much!!! xxx
Bright, the shiftybooklover, signing off! xxx